tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13416536764159560542023-11-16T11:47:29.312-05:00Antiquated Post-Modernist Bedlam (or a cog without a wheel)TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.comBlogger82125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-33215419715655286692010-03-02T18:35:00.001-05:002010-03-02T18:36:25.613-05:00head out of herethis site is going to be abondoned for the flash and shiny features of Tumblr......<br />come follow me.....<br /><br />www.poeticartifacts.tumblr.comTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-66746967388219825302010-03-02T14:37:00.000-05:002010-03-02T14:38:54.418-05:00courtesy of omni........rant: why idol worship will ruin poetry<br /><br />im like, wildly put-off by the celebritizing of poets in my community. while i encourage people and poets to reach out to poets who inspire them and thank them and communicate with them how their work has touched their lives…<br /><br />i get a really uncomfortable sense of a burdgeoning idol worship developing. as youth slam becomes more wide-spread and those poets come into college and encounter poets who they themsevles watched on youtube or wherever growing up, i see more and more young poets fawning over these “slam celebrities”. While i appreciate the contributions of the “big names”, im fairly repulsed by the attitude that shaking their hands or sharing a car with them is meaningfull or important.<br /><br />i hope, and encourage my own poets i coach to not look UP to these poets beyond their poems. To not idolize. Dont act like your life is complete because you shared a cab with anis or rachel or buddy or anyone. And if any of those sorts of people treat you like your less than, well…fuck them. fuck them in their asses. roughly.<br /><br />the community is the most important thing we have, and when our young poets get into this groupie mentality, treating their peers and fellow poets like superstars to whome they can only bow in the glow of their radiant light, we create a shitty, imbalanced community. all those “famous” poets who won alot of stuff. they’re your equals. dont incite this madness. treat them like you would treat your own teammates or classmates. but latching on to a notable slam poet for handshakes and praise is like…gross to me.<br /><br />im glad youve been inspired, tell them that. but not like youre talking to someone who is half-deity. that shit is stupid. be your own poet. impress yourself. do not judge your life by how many times you can share a car ride with derrick brown.<br /><br />they are important to our success. but no more than you.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-36160046123088952632010-01-18T12:03:00.000-05:002010-01-18T12:04:44.951-05:00my high school experience.None of us were creators then<br />Only destroyers<br />Leaving empty space in our wake.<br />Running backwards<br />Thinking that what we saw<br />Was us,<br />Rushing towards oblivionTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-9290139974336464562010-01-12T19:17:00.002-05:002010-01-12T19:19:57.376-05:00Ethos pt. 1There was a café in Richmond,<br />that force fed starving artists<br />amazing food and love,<br />the way we starving artists<br />feed the world creativity.<br />Without asking.<br />Without expecting anything in return.<br />And with a noble sense of obligation<br /><br />Jen and Sarah,<br />were the couple who owned it.<br />they taught to me what it meant<br />to be revolutionary.<br />Some of their proceeds went to programs<br />for needle exchanges<br />or helping underage girls<br />get safe abortions<br />if they couldn’t tell their parents.<br /><br />The types of programs<br />that make conservatives <br />blow steam out their ears.<br />and head out on the warpath.<br /><br />They did it quietly.<br />Happily.<br />Not wanting to offend any clientele<br />that might object<br />to their patronage<br />funding such fringe causes.<br />But someone had to do it they said.<br />Why not them?<br /><br />Not to mention, <br />their coffee was amazing.<br /><br />It may have been the only place<br />ever in my life,<br />where I would strike up<br />conversations with complete strangers.<br />And I did every day,<br />since I was there for hours on end.<br />A safe haven for vagrant artists,<br />vagabonds,<br />and various free thinkers.<br /><br />Before I went on tour for a month<br />with Joseph,<br />Ethos cafe held a fundraiser for us.<br />It was all their friends <br />that showed up<br /><br />Jen and Sarah hadn’t slept yet.<br />They were up all nite<br />making T-shirts for us to sell<br />at shows.<br /><br />They had us perform<br />and passed a hat.<br /><br />People who struggle<br />to make rent every month<br />threw money into that hat<br />after Jen’s speech,<br />about how people who try<br />to really follow their dreams<br />need everyone else around them<br />to struggle a little more,<br />voluntarily,<br />while they wait for <br />their opportunity<br />to take the leap.<br /><br />And whenever they chose <br />to take that leap,<br />Ethos would be right there<br />to pass a hat<br />and do whatever it took<br />to see them off right.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-18843969556330488182010-01-12T17:53:00.001-05:002010-01-12T17:53:57.095-05:00All I Know is Humor.She said it was happening again<br /><br />My read resting in her lap <br />as she scratched and massaged <br />my freshly shaved scalp.<br /><br />She noticed the other day,<br /> too much long red hair in the drain.<br />The doctors still seem confused, <br />but think its a rare form of lupus.<br />Her body, aimlessly waging war against itself<br /><br />‘there might be one advantage’ <br />I tell her lazily as the opium of her fingers <br />work themselves into my system<br />‘I can finally return all this <br />head massaging that you give me’<br /><br />I swear, <br />I felt her smile through those fingersTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-39647243858395416582010-01-05T23:47:00.001-05:002010-01-05T23:50:15.647-05:00Honey Badgers for AnxietyWe were at a Thai restaurant <br />In Austin, Tx<br />A few fellow poets<br />And the girl I was dating<br />A guitar player<br /><br />She would open for hard rock bands<br />Just her, <br />An acoustic guitar,<br />And the songs she wrote<br />Rocking the venue<br /><br />But this night,<br />She had one of her anxiety attacks<br />Right after we ordered.<br />She was outside,<br />Sitting balled up<br />Leaning back against the building<br />World around her spinning<br />Breath caught and pressed<br />By boulders<br /><br />I sat with her,<br />Told jokes,<br />And recounted <br />Scene for scene<br />A documentary on my favorite animal,<br /><br />The honey badger.<br /><br />Considered the most tenacious<br />Animal on the planet,<br />It attacks lions, and poisonous snakes<br />Without a care.<br /><br />But it gets its name,<br />From its love of honey.<br />And the reckless abandon<br />With which it dives into<br />Underground hives<br />Being stung thousands of times<br />Just to pull out the<br />Sweet sweet honeycomb<br /><br /><br />Maybe that is like<br />Working through an anxiety attack.<br />Knowing the honeycomb,<br />The ability to take a <br />deep, sweet, <br />Breath of air <br />Is worth getting stung<br />By shortness of breath,<br />And vertigo.<br />So you don’t ever <br />give up trying<br /><br />The whole time I talked,<br />I kept a hand on her belly,<br />Made her focus on breathing.<br />Trying to keep it slow and deliberate<br />Eventually we stood up<br />as everyone filed out of the restaurant<br /><br />We missed dinner.<br /><br />A couple weeks later<br />There was a package in the mail<br />A stuffed animal,<br />An official honey badger<br />I had no idea<br />That they even made those<br /><br />It must have been much<br />Harder to obtain<br />Than my stories were<br />That eased her anxiety<br /><br />And receiving it eased mine,<br />Concerned about<br />How much I actually helped.<br /><br />Apparently,<br />Honey badgers<br />Work better<br />Than Effexor or Zoloft<br /><br />But like all anxiety meds,<br />The side effects can be brutal.<br /><br />Biting and clawing,<br />Resulting in excessive bleedingTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-85678206570844655032010-01-03T20:40:00.000-05:002010-01-03T20:42:04.135-05:00Sitting in a metal-smithing studioSitting in a metal-smithing studio<br /><br />Surrounded by a wide array<br />Of unfamiliar instruments,<br />Numerous tools with <br />Slight variations,<br />Each waiting silently<br />For their moment<br />To make a vocal mark <br />On the world<br />Through the delicate hands<br />Of an artist.<br /><br />It makes me wonder,<br />How complex is my art?<br /><br />Substituting a pen<br />For a pencil,<br />Paper for a keyboard-<br />Would that make a<br />Discernable difference<br />In the outcome of this poem?<br /><br />Never will someone say<br /><br />‘I loved your poem,<br />Did you usea ballpoint pen?<br />Or a number 2 pencil?’<br /><br />Writing and performing poems<br />Does not hold evidence<br />Of the medium used<br />In the precious moments of conception<br />There is no need to switch between<br />Lead and ink <br />mid-poem<br />In order to fine tune these metaphors<br />With the proper hue and texture<br /><br />So how complex<br />Is this act of expression?TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-32052001035236152412009-12-30T15:34:00.002-05:002009-12-30T15:40:41.006-05:00late in high school, and my year off............were spent keeping soberness at bay <br />during daylight hours<br />And trying to drown it at night<br />Only to wake the next day<br />And try again. <br />i'm still not sure<br />what my grudge was<br />with sobriety.<br />but i'm still<br />pretty sure<br />it deserved it.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-15392602409401561292009-12-29T22:14:00.001-05:002009-12-29T22:17:04.412-05:00DaggersAs my fingers caressed the small of her back.<br />I still remember<br />not just what she said, <br />but how she said it.<br /> <br />‘Why are you touching me like this?’ <br /> <br />She told me from the get go <br />that she doesn’t use the word ‘love’<br />I told her it was overrated anyway <br /> <br />Oxycoton and heroin<br />Taught her feelings,<br />And I had become another hangover<br /><br />She consumed me, <br />Anytime she felt lonely and bored <br />a common void bonding us together<br />But only at the edges<br />we spent our time fighting or fucking<br />To grab, poke, stab, bite, yell<br />At something outside ourselves.<br /><br />Even our cold shoulders<br />Were loud, defiant<br />And jagged <br /><br />But there were quiet moments,<br />In bed, <br />With cigarette smoke and sweat<br />Her tracing my tattoos <br />over and over.<br />My lips, <br />speaking slow<br />Gently touching<br />Old bruises,<br />More ancient than either of us felt <br /><br />that was when she got<br />Demanding.<br />Each word carefully<br />Sharpened into a <br />Barbed and accurate dagger <br /> <br />‘Why do you touch me like that?’<br />Her voice slicing the space between us<br />Eyes begging for the answer. <br />I would smile, confused<br />And say, because these <br />are beautiful moments <br /><br />thinking that<br />Our violence,<br />For a moment,<br />Together……<br />Could be all love is <br /><br />Reminding her<br />softly of this emptiness <br />The way she reminded me<br />Through daggers of words<br />That pierced my insecurity <br /><br />These serene moments are tiny scars <br />Wondering if I touched her like that…<br />With delicate daggers on my fingertips<br />Just to remind each other of the voids <br />we were seeking to destroyTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-14956150900406384892009-12-29T14:46:00.003-05:002009-12-29T14:48:08.011-05:00Salvation Incorporated. - Eric Victorinototal poet crush on this guy right here.......<br /><br />"I dont think <br />people who believe in god<br />are stupid.<br />plenty of very<br />intelligent people<br />have faith.<br />some of them<br />have even read the bible.<br />i've read it.<br />and i think its a great story<br />its a fucking best-seller<br />for Christ's sake."TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-87944241528376225262009-12-16T10:41:00.002-05:002009-12-16T10:54:47.263-05:00excerpt from a great fucking book......"i hope this book enters into the mix, bringing academics, performers, and all who care about a society in a postmodern, postindustrial world together, dropping some knowledge and breaking down some barriers. i hope, too, that it does something to dispel the pernicious notion that rappers are somehow non- or anti-intellectual, or that in describing the crises facing urban American and the world they are somehow glamorizing or advocating the conditions of which they testify. On the academic side, i hope that no one will any longer be able to think of music or poetry in the late twentieth century without assigning rappers a primary place, both out of an awareness of the urgency of their message, as well as on account of the tremendous poetic power and variety of their expression. and for rappers themselves, and everyone in the vast and growing hip-hop nation, i hope this book will help make evident the mulitiple connections between hip-hop's insurrectionary knowledges and the historical and societal forces against which they are posed, and in so doing expand and strengthen the depth of our determination to 'fight the powers that be'."<br />-Russell A. Potter<br />Spectacular Vernaculars: Hip Hop and the Politics of PostmodernismTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-15499037932433085762009-12-13T17:41:00.001-05:002009-12-13T17:42:34.745-05:00"I love quantum physics so much.... I just think I'd be calmed by the solar flares."<br /><br />A friend on wanting to see the Northern LightsTJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-82936761891485844232009-12-07T10:24:00.001-05:002009-12-07T10:27:57.859-05:00Paroled Fable Thieves Intro piece (TJ & Kristen Tomanocy)<span style="font-weight:bold;">We live in this house of language</span><br />This cathedral <br />of oratory masters. <br /><span style="font-style:italic;">this castle of tradition<br />dug with fricatives and dipthongs<br />poured meaning through these sounds in order to cement stories</span><br />My bones never mortared themselves<br />for Aristotle's corinthian mantle foundation<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">but they hold up the rafters<br />while hinged lungs from the past sing back and forth<br />with every door we open and close in the hallway</span><br />my tongue drags along the doorknobs <br /><span style="font-style:italic;">wanting to taste every story with these words</span><br />starving for the ferment of cellared ancestry<br />I taste the spilled blood like iron in the hinges<br />my shins hold up the dinner table<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">plattered with a history of every noble hearts evocation</span><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">so listen</span><br />when you live in a house created by the <br />howls of human need, <span style="font-style:italic;">extending the limb of language</span>, <br />a lost tongue in a shadowed cave of a mouth<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">you feel the echoes of your next door neighbors</span><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">So stop sitting down<br />stand</span><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Raise a primordial scream like a battering ram</span><br />because the labored breath of <br />these creators is rattling through us.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">demanding to be heard </span><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">We can own this.<span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;"></span></span></span><br />Read this.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Channel this.</span><br />Lyric this.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Love this.</span><br />The words of our people typewrite themselves<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">through our toes on this hardwood floor.</span><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">write this. write this. write this.</span><br />Move like you have been given<br />the chance to construct stolen sonnets,<br />we are nothing but thieves in this mountain of crumpled pages<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">oragami masters<br />adding new folds from our own experiences<br />delivered through our breath as a gift<br />to decorate anothers barren dwellings</span><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Because when you inherit this beautiful, ancient<br />temple of a house<br />all you can do<br />is listen to it. <br /></span>TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-11638506712928250102009-12-02T21:33:00.005-05:002009-12-02T22:11:24.937-05:00Un-Friended by my grandfather!!!!!My grandfather, also a writer, sent me this after i posted the link to the first anthology of the Intangibles "Static: and Other Lungless Things" on his facebook page.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirygfFjbMxiQvJq-jm1hyphenhyphenAXjKPQYXNtdx_zlnDbwcv1Te8tAhiSzbzMBQMshfqIKneyJKt7wM2PWGmXxeQ-mk5W0wevnKLy5qt2C4pjr0pLo4NXroxDydesB0tpT-g3vbvWbFRIFt9IEQl/s1600-h/blog+post.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 178px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirygfFjbMxiQvJq-jm1hyphenhyphenAXjKPQYXNtdx_zlnDbwcv1Te8tAhiSzbzMBQMshfqIKneyJKt7wM2PWGmXxeQ-mk5W0wevnKLy5qt2C4pjr0pLo4NXroxDydesB0tpT-g3vbvWbFRIFt9IEQl/s320/blog+post.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5410832796464454706" /></a><br /><br />Awesome!<br />if you want to see what i posted on his page to elicit such a response, visit here http://poetcd.com/index.php?item=285TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-34757867791410098802009-11-29T00:15:00.004-05:002009-11-29T00:26:56.280-05:00Upcoming shows........Tuesday, Dec 8th<br />Binghamton, NY<br />the Premier of .........<br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9yC8gmKYOwiX6tHI6L0bnup1Z3rjKmAqQVMBko_lKbUjzE6QHI_KZ0HiXTj5pmYqoLhcN-ioJ-ldsKWFGxDpJ0Bu-21XSt5Jzzd3NSMnm1i4fj5LDqJLwrVtVq88DBhdddJiD9xDhIvv7/s1600/final.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 158px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9yC8gmKYOwiX6tHI6L0bnup1Z3rjKmAqQVMBko_lKbUjzE6QHI_KZ0HiXTj5pmYqoLhcN-ioJ-ldsKWFGxDpJ0Bu-21XSt5Jzzd3NSMnm1i4fj5LDqJLwrVtVq88DBhdddJiD9xDhIvv7/s320/final.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5409391796869536466" /></a><br /><br /><br />De Saussure’s concept of ‘Parole’ deals with concrete, actual instances of a language and is not concerned with grammar, syntax, and rule. As torchbearers of the oral tradition, we acknowledge the embodiment of the story in its moment, concerned with being over meaning, making each performance unique. Nothing new can be said, but it can be presented in new ways, and is; Every time something is performed.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-14662567048827495972009-11-28T13:34:00.001-05:002009-11-28T13:34:41.326-05:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwQD7C19TkAZLmxsw_FdV3wC1lYGRBd-XzUWY-_D9oXfBFcXqxoKGcULQL8bwF4dDxQVbZXjMQxxnbzley90KFf8JZHLlG51HYFfofYDVrmoOgMJbezWhlhkkGfAzMPHExqFv8qrXULh7B/s1600/repost......jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 262px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwQD7C19TkAZLmxsw_FdV3wC1lYGRBd-XzUWY-_D9oXfBFcXqxoKGcULQL8bwF4dDxQVbZXjMQxxnbzley90KFf8JZHLlG51HYFfofYDVrmoOgMJbezWhlhkkGfAzMPHExqFv8qrXULh7B/s320/repost......jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5409224731012020818" /></a>TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-22111433132193420402009-11-21T21:26:00.001-05:002009-11-21T21:30:05.542-05:00Closing Paragraph from my undergrad philosophy thesis on archaeological theory....My only concern as we set out on our path of self-discovery through the past, inching forwards towards a more comprehensive understanding of our beginnings is that we will exhaust our data, our ability to find and excavate new sites before we can reach a honed and accepted method of archaeological discourse. A place where different fields of thought, theories, and data will all work collectively in critically tying together the threads of our past into a tapestry of learning and achievement. We should view Archaeology as archaeology. Borrowing from other fields as seen fit in the course in inquiry, and acknowledging new methods that can be checked and appropriated in a proper place with regards to our biases will enrich all of our endeavors.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-48128661510605014202009-11-19T15:10:00.000-05:002009-11-19T15:11:36.670-05:00Eros and ArsonI watched her gently pull a camel non-filter out of a half empty pack as if she was an archaeologist, uncovering some ancient relic to be viewed by mankind for the first time in millennia.<br /><br />Delicately placed it between clenched front teeth and grinned as I leaned forward with my lighter.<br />She leaned back away from the flame, paused, and said with a gleam in her eye,<br /><br />“lets just burn the whole fucking thing”, one eyebrow slightly raised in a challenging manner<br /><br />“what,” I said, “this bar?”<br /><br />She leaned forward again, kissed her cigarette to the flame I held never breaking eye contact, inhaled, took an infinite second to savor it, and shook her head, wild mane of brunette hair sweeping over her shoulders as she exhaled.<br /><br />“all of it,” she said, “you, me, us, the system, all of it”<br /><br />I smiled back slightly, quietly wishing it was the bar she wished to engulf in her fire.<br />The ease with which all of this alcohol would ignite and spread made it an acceptable thought process, something within my realm of possibility.<br /><br />We were silent for a few thoughtful drags of our cigarettes, my free hand gently massaging her stocking covered thigh, sliding under the hem of her skirt.<br /><br />I suppose it was too late to turn back.<br /><br />Yes, we were already prisoners of this world… but here, with only us in this closed bar, we were defying labels, redefining intimacy, love, passion, and comfort without conscious attention to our actions and repercussions.<br /><br />But I never thought myself capable of destroying these socially cemented notions that chart our course in the world. I only checked them like a jacket at the door when we stole time alone here, never forgetting to collect them again as I left.<br /><br />Our cigarettes finished, she stood, stepped over and pressed her body into mine, seeing if the friction of our heat could melt us, could spark raging infernos that would reduce society around us to ash, <br />and her lips gently caressed my neck as she whispered,<br /><br />“this is whats real, and it can never be burned or destroyed”<br /><br />And I watched her saunter out the door, back into the world, no baggage of labels to pick up as she set off to set the world ablaze.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-78824569899678491362009-10-31T16:02:00.001-04:002009-10-31T16:02:50.133-04:00understanding perception and beauty and arthttp://bitsofwisdom.org/2009/10/21/interesting/perception/TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-40051411768226740832009-10-30T19:45:00.002-04:002009-10-30T19:46:21.431-04:00YOU WANT TO GO TO THERE!!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAbXsGCOgdqIHLTD-U97FA4tAjQ9o4_GZCApb1xDqbEJ_vdFwV52Lh_4NbLhXM4s3LA_02zOfrsMURuZUDgpKCBc-pSm5WrBipmx5jeLx6FTwqfIYYZ8Ehyphenhyphen7KX2mREzi0SqsXvcGdWnMPB/s1600-h/static+tour.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 218px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAbXsGCOgdqIHLTD-U97FA4tAjQ9o4_GZCApb1xDqbEJ_vdFwV52Lh_4NbLhXM4s3LA_02zOfrsMURuZUDgpKCBc-pSm5WrBipmx5jeLx6FTwqfIYYZ8Ehyphenhyphen7KX2mREzi0SqsXvcGdWnMPB/s320/static+tour.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5398543538828657618" /></a>TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-40226686878117360082009-10-10T11:36:00.001-04:002009-10-10T11:36:42.263-04:00another road trip story....... of a different vein<a href="http://trifter.com/usa-canada/the-real-road-trips-arent-about-destinations/">Road trips with Bryan Lee</a>TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-34018510514617238632009-10-09T09:13:00.001-04:002009-10-09T09:14:08.250-04:00old short storyjust published an old short story, give a read.......<br />its a hoot!<br /><br />http://authspot.com/short-stories/why-i-can%E2%80%99t-go-to-canada/TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-41602141990076304592009-09-23T12:21:00.000-04:002009-09-23T12:23:20.351-04:00why I write not type<meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"><meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"><meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 12"><meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 12"><link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CUsers%5CPOETIC%7E1%5CAppData%5CLocal%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><link rel="themeData" href="file:///C:%5CUsers%5CPOETIC%7E1%5CAppData%5CLocal%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_themedata.thmx"><link rel="colorSchemeMapping" href="file:///C:%5CUsers%5CPOETIC%7E1%5CAppData%5CLocal%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_colorschememapping.xml"><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:trackmoves/> <w:trackformatting/> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:donotpromoteqf/> <w:lidthemeother>EN-US</w:LidThemeOther> <w:lidthemeasian>X-NONE</w:LidThemeAsian> <w:lidthemecomplexscript>X-NONE</w:LidThemeComplexScript> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> <w:splitpgbreakandparamark/> <w:dontvertaligncellwithsp/> <w:dontbreakconstrainedforcedtables/> <w:dontvertalignintxbx/> <w:word11kerningpairs/> <w:cachedcolbalance/> </w:Compatibility> <m:mathpr> <m:mathfont val="Cambria Math"> <m:brkbin val="before"> <m:brkbinsub val="--"> <m:smallfrac val="off"> <m:dispdef/> <m:lmargin val="0"> <m:rmargin val="0"> <m:defjc val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent val="1440"> <m:intlim val="subSup"> <m:narylim val="undOvr"> </m:mathPr></w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" defunhidewhenused="true" defsemihidden="true" defqformat="false" defpriority="99" latentstylecount="267"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="0" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Normal"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="heading 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 7"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 8"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="9" qformat="true" name="heading 9"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 7"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 8"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" name="toc 9"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="35" qformat="true" name="caption"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="10" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Title"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="1" name="Default Paragraph Font"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="11" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Subtitle"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="22" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Strong"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="20" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Emphasis"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="59" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Table Grid"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Placeholder Text"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="1" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="No Spacing"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Revision"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="34" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="List Paragraph"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="29" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Quote"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="30" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Intense Quote"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 1"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 2"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 3"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 4"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 5"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="60" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Shading Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="61" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light List Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="62" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Light Grid Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="63" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 1 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="64" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Shading 2 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="65" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 1 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="66" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium List 2 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="67" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 1 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="68" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 2 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="69" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Medium Grid 3 Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="70" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Dark List Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="71" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Shading Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="72" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful List Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="73" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" name="Colorful Grid Accent 6"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="19" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Subtle Emphasis"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="21" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Intense Emphasis"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="31" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Subtle Reference"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="32" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Intense Reference"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="33" semihidden="false" unhidewhenused="false" qformat="true" name="Book Title"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="37" name="Bibliography"> <w:lsdexception locked="false" priority="39" qformat="true" name="TOC Heading"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:"Cambria Math"; panose-1:2 4 5 3 5 4 6 3 2 4; mso-font-charset:1; mso-generic-font-family:roman; mso-font-format:other; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:0 0 0 0 0 0;} @font-face {font-family:Calibri; panose-1:2 15 5 2 2 2 4 3 2 4; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:swiss; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:-1610611985 1073750139 0 0 159 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-unhide:no; mso-style-qformat:yes; mso-style-parent:""; margin-top:0in; margin-right:0in; margin-bottom:10.0pt; margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi;} .MsoChpDefault {mso-style-type:export-only; mso-default-props:yes; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:Calibri; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi;} .MsoPapDefault {mso-style-type:export-only; margin-bottom:10.0pt; line-height:115%;} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.0in 1.0in 1.0in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} --> </style><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-qformat:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0in; mso-para-margin-right:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;} </style> <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:shapedefaults ext="edit" spidmax="1026"> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:shapelayout ext="edit"> <o:idmap ext="edit" data="1"> </o:shapelayout></xml><![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal">Sometimes sitting down and typing feels alien ot me. The keys are never punched in the right order, constant backspaces and retypes are here that you will never even know about. Instead I will leave all of them in plain sight for you to reall yobsever what I am talking about, although I suppose iwill at least strike through the misplaced words and nonsensicsal retypes that would help to make this a more readable projecet. I even catch myhself automatically backspacing and trtyping before I have a chance to allow them to be solidified inot reality and notn just a momentary blip of my mistake to be covered up and disguised like a blemish on the face of a model minutes before a shoot.</p> TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-41525446864551805562009-09-23T12:18:00.000-04:002009-09-23T12:19:52.897-04:00Bar Napkin Scrawl circa 2005 Ricmond, VA<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhzKlV3aSyexRFKlX4rKl4OvzZ3Pwc7-jF-IcgzcQoeZjmc9mc_uZfxU8F7ECLfJrVXtlwjMdJx6EPOb4nHUM6C5gAAGumPxsTOyvUXmjwNvj_ueKFgszbHuv9kFo7s9rytqMm8bCzAsxc/s1600-h/BarNapkin+Scrawl+2005.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 316px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhzKlV3aSyexRFKlX4rKl4OvzZ3Pwc7-jF-IcgzcQoeZjmc9mc_uZfxU8F7ECLfJrVXtlwjMdJx6EPOb4nHUM6C5gAAGumPxsTOyvUXmjwNvj_ueKFgszbHuv9kFo7s9rytqMm8bCzAsxc/s320/BarNapkin+Scrawl+2005.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5384698311003971538" border="0" /></a>TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1341653676415956054.post-82956681937481061792009-09-17T23:32:00.000-04:002009-09-17T23:48:15.094-04:00Eternal RecurrenceIf you are reading this, upon completion of this thought process do me a favor.... sit still, breathe real slow, and try to imagine yourself not existing. An atheists death i suppose, just picture one minute you thinking and feeling and seeing, and the next just blinked out. How difficult is it to imagine oneself Not Existing. Yourself in the first person sense gone. It seems overwhelming to try and imagine. Sometimes when my mood strikes a particular combination of things (tiredness i believe being one of them), i can feel like i'm standing on the edge of that abyss of existing/not existing. Only for a moment or two, then its gone.<br /><br />During that moment however, i'm filled with a powerful feeling, one of recognition, a sense of understanding almost. It's as if i have teetered on that ledge before and quickly backtrack my process of living and end up here again. Those of you that know me understand my fascination with Nietzsche. One of his ideas crops up here, that of eternal recurrence. If your life does flash before your eyes, like some people say, i guess that would be it. If you truly do get a flash of life right before your eyes that only lasts a moment of 'real time', it would still feel like your life being lived over again. Every minute of it. Horrible, painful and mundane, fun and excrutiating. Nietzsche says that one should model their life over this idea that you have to relive every second of your existence eternally.<br /><br />Now some astronomers and the like would say that given enough time and space, everything that could happen, has, and then all thats left (given there is still an infinite amount of time) gets repeated over and over again, a sort of cosmic re-run. What makes us so arrogant as to think that this is the first run through? Is it possible that we have all gone through these motions before? My typing, your reading, just another lap around the same track. Well hopefully, the first and original go round you have read this (or something similar, i won't presuppose the arrogance that my writing is the catlyst for where i am going with this) and changed afew things to make the reliving as enjoyable as possible. However, just in case this is the first go round, you (and I as well) should make a few adjustments to ensure that we can have a more enjoyable eternal recurrance.<br /><br />And if not, if all of this is nonsense and you find it trite and irritating, just picture not existing. Or come as close as you can. Maybe you'll get that tingling little sensation that you have done this before.TJhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09210806305113404036noreply@blogger.com0